Poetry Day 7

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Day 7: Narrative

Before you begin reading, this is a warning- this isn’t something that is pretty. This is something that I would like to call the harsh truth that is life. I hope you choose to stay and read. This is my {messy} narrative, that led to some truths about..well life. It's a bit of poem layout as well as paragraphs. Hope you enjoy :)



This is dedicated to anonymousyou know who you are.

Rough & Tough: This is Life, Sorry.

I received that text
From that person-
Who shall remain anonymous throughout this story,
Pouring their heart and feelings out,
I could only say so much and feel, well blah.
Nothing I was saying was helping.
Every time I responded- I felt I was making things worse.
We were both apologizing- but honestly there was nothing for either of us to apologize for.
This is a person, who I consider a best friend,
I see strength, humbleness, honesty, integrity, love,
and so much more in this person.
If only this person would see the same.
I feared for the worst, afraid of what might happen.
As we talked, I would both anticipate as response
And hope not to receive one
Not because I didn’t want to be there for the person
But because I felt like I was being of no help.
I hate having to use the old cliché
“…we go through challenges within our lives…” –
or
“Life always has meaning, sometimes we just don’t see it”
How do you explain that? I know that I myself get frustrated when someone says that to me when I’m feeling like crap.
I hate to make this sound like it is about me-
But I know exactly what this person is/was feeling.
Feeling as if the whole world is crashing down just around you.
Scared and confused, worried and frustrated.
Upset and angry
Wanting to cry everything out, but you cannot.
At times like these we feel hopeless and helpless.
Not just the person going through a difficult time,
But also the person who is being confided in.
You are confused, frustrated, want to be alone but at the same time don’t want to be completely alone-
I am confused too- about how you are feeling, I want to give you space but don’t want you to think I am not there for you.
     You kept saying you didn't know and that’s okay because sometimes in life we don’t know. We don’t know how to articulate and communicate how we are feeling. I hope you can figure out what’s going on in that mind of yours and you’re at peace with life soon. I sincerely hope I can help you get there, but at the same time I hope you can do it on your own too, because this isn't the first time you have felt this way.
     Silly you, and you thought I was mad- what would I even have the right to mad about?  If I was mad- it was not justifiable anger, I’ll tell you that. No I’m not mad. I’m frustrated I can’t get you out of…well this funk. At the end of the day, just know that I am trying my hardest to be there for you, to be the shoulder you need to lean on, to be the person who can put a smile back on your face. To be the person who is really, truly, 100% there for you throughout all these obstacles and struggles that make up what we call life. I hate to be blunt, but you’re going to feel this way a lot in life. It sucks. I know. But as I said before- it’s life. There is no picture perfect life, unless you live a world where life is no fields of flowers, all smiles, and constant laughter. And people always telling you that everything will be okay, you’ll figure it out… Sorry if you think life is like that then you’re not really living a life. Life isn't littered with perfect things or any crap like that- sorry to crush your dreams. If you live in reality then you know that life includes obstacles, struggles, set-backs, and so many things that you question and doubt. If you live in a real life then you know that you will go through things in life that feel gut-wrenching, or that will make you want to cry, maybe even scream. Sometimes you may see life itself as just meaningless or senseless, But as you travel through the dark tunnel, go through the bottomless depths of misery and isolation, keep walking through the falls of uncertainty, run through the terrors- find not just the light, but me at the end of that dark tunnel that is life. Trust me. I feel as if I have already lived it once, and have accepted that I may live it again. But no matter what, even if you go through that tunnel alone, in the end I’ll be there. You may not remember all the time- but I am your friend. I am here for you.

Sincerely,
Aishah

7 comments

  1. This has the promise to be a novel. So much is left for us to imagine, so that we want more!

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  2. It may not be pretty, but it's beautiful.
    There are few things more beautiful than a friend who is willing to stand with someone through the hard times.

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  3. "At times like these we feel hopeless and helpless.
    Not just the person going through a difficult time,
    But also the person who is being confided in." This is so true. Thank you.

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  4. Thank you all so much!

    Vivin- that is too kind, I don't know if I could make this an entire novel. Perhaps an anthology... or short stories of my own trials throughout life.

    Adam- Who ever said life was pretty, right?

    Esther- It is, and it hurts is too, right?
    Thanks you guys!

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  5. This is such a lovely write. Keep pulling me along to the end.

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  6. Isn't pretty, doesn't have to be, but it's very real and needed to be written.

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  7. I felt each word... and there are so many more. I'm sure. X

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